What Next?

Well, Its been a long time since my last blog. Been thinking a lot again. (What else I am good at....????!!!!) All this while, I have been discussing with my friends and peers about my approach to life. About how to cross the next immediate transience? Because of some health conditions, I had to re-build my entire life strategy. Have to plan, how to make use of me being alive, both to me and my environment. I am not in any hurry to do "SOMETHING" before I die.

Looked around. Wherever I see life, I saw incompleteness. Darwin is right. Evolution is happening in front of me. Then I realized, completeness is non-existing. There is no stage which you can call Complete. Because sometime back, around May 2010, a beautiful thing happened. I had a medical condition where my Thyroid glands were affected. Because of that, my brain went hyper-active (not that it was sleeping around until then, in fact, I was advised by all whom I have met, to not 'THINK' too much). And at this hyper-active stage, there was a series of events, which I used to my advantage. The events included all bad things that could happen - career crash, road accident, horrible medical condition, not meeting/calling my friends, and worse - guilt of hurting my friend. At this stage, I involved myself in immense thinking and at this stage, I hit "IT". I had found "Voidness". I am even proud of getting to this stage, without any "GURU" or even reading much. Though I am grateful to those whom I have met in my life, until then.

I thought about writing a blog about "Voidness". Because I felt it, and due to my poor vocabulary, I couldn't put it in words. Then last month, my friend Robert tweeted me an article. It was such a beautiful piece, that it could not be said any better and simpler than that. Hence, rather than re-writing what's in that "VOID" stage, I present you the article's link itself.

http://www.wikihow.com/Explore-Voidness-and-Live-Beyond-It

Funnily enough, I started a strange exercise. I tried to fill the Voidness, after I felt it. Just wanted to see how my fellow beings around me are living with a sense of purpose. Because, I still couldn't figure out what drives them. Even now. I tried to remove all the protective layers I built around me. I even felt weakness, courageously. I realized - even discussed this in length with my friend Visu - "Strength doesn't lie in avoiding fear and weakness, its in facing them and conquering them". Got hurt badly in this exercise though. But, its worth it. Now I can understand people around me better. Now, I have become "Emotionally intelligent" too. I still haven't reached the stage where I would like to be. But, definitely on the way.

So, What's next?

I must say, NOTHING can fill VOIDNESS, not even EVERYTHING.